i read your message over and over again trying to understand why would you write something so nice to me, dear anon. do you believe in those words? are they the truth in your world?
if yes, than i want to do my best to live up to the idea of me that you’ve created. unfrotunately, in my eyes it’s far from true. (it even makes me feel bad that i, somehow, fooled you enough that you believed in what you wrote, golden). but still, call me vain if you want but your message made me extremly happy. i live to meet people like you on my path. thank you so much.
it’s difficult for me to explain it and not sound silly, golden anon. i suppose for me a bear is someone strong and confident but also gentle and sincere. i’m such a struggling soul, always afraid of something. in bear’s embrace i would definitely feel safe. still, it’s not strength that i seek. it’s more like an awareness that he is strong enough mentally to know his value and strong enough physically to protect himself/me but seldom shows it on the outside because of his kindness and being a peaceful spirit. sigh, it seems like i’m not able to explain it properly. i’m sorry.
also, even though appearance is not the most important to me and a bear spirit can be hidden and not visible on the outside, i do like men that resemble my favourite animal (: i like big (wood-cutter looking haha) men with beards and kind eyes.
i’m sorry it took me this long to reply, dearest. this week was so chaotic i couldn’t find enough time to go on tumblr. thank you for the question, though. it’s very comforting (yet still quite suprising) that you read my writings and cared enough to ask about them.